wildaspie

Sick yesterday and feeling kind of down today.  Made the appointment to take the dogs to the only shelter in the area that has room – Husband said to keep calling around for a place that can take them before the 24th, but I just can’t.  The calls I already made were hard enough.

It’s a no-kill shelter, but they require a $50 “donation” per animal – doesn’t matter that a big part of the reason I have to give them up is that we can’t afford to keep them.

I also have an appointment for orientation on the 12th for Personal Assistants for the Center for Independent Living; the pay is crap but the work is light, mostly just providing company to elderly folks.  I’ve done the work before and should have no problem with it again.  I’m also starting to think I need more structure to my days, and this will be a good solution.

Did manage to get the new template for my other blog set up, although it was an exercise in anger management working with unfamiliar code in unfamiliar language that behaved unpredictably – code is only supposed to do what you tell it to do, but this stuff has a mind of its own and I had to redo modules three and four times because a change some where else would completely undo an hour’s work in an unrelated portion of the script.

Otherwise, I’m having a much harder time keeping on track with my plans that I feel I should.  I have an appointment with my psychologist this Friday, but I don’t have much hope of finding any real answer during the session.  Also had another anxiety attack today despite not having forgotten my meds last night.  Maybe I’m already building up a tolerance or maybe, like so many other drugs, this stuff just isn’t working right.

Just had a cross exchange with my eldest daughter Rose …

Rose has a near-addiction for an online game site.  She’s generally a responsible kid, but when it comes to this particular habit, she’s got no control at all.

I’ve spoken with her repeatedly about the fact that my evening medications make me very drowsy, and I need her to be especially conscientious about not taking advantage if I fall asleep before dragging her away from the computer for the night.  And usually she is.

But over the weekend, she not only took advantage, she flaunted it to her online pals.  When we checked her online activity and saw this, my Husband grounded her from the computer, and also banned her from that site indefinitely.

So the last couple of days she’s been sulking in bed (not that she’s really suffering: she has her books, Japanese tapes, drawing stuff, and mp3 player) and refusing to be in the same room with her dad except for meals.

But she comes in while I’m working and pouts, “Non-violent protest doesn’t work when no one cares!”

I pointed out she made a bad choice and is now dealing with the consequences.  Too bad.  And of course, the more I talked, the stormier and scowlier she got, until she stomped off back to bed.

I am soooo not a drama-mama.  But, hey, it’s Monday; what else could I have expected?